As the title goes, am blogging after a long gap. A lot has transpired since my last post 2 yrs back. I guess I was too lazy to write or bored. Or perhaps life just got busier, got myself another degree, then the pressure of graduating into a recession and the impending job search. Finally when I landed with a job, it was new environment, friends and last but not the least...a death-eater of a boss and all that Blah!
What did i do in the last 2 years. Hmm..I got myself another degree. The trinkets a degree can offer is perhaps important, More money of coz, people tend to listen to you(sometimes :P) and assume you can do magic and u get fed well and made to feel important. So why not? Think of it as a brownie point in a CV or an added skillset. After all to sense bullshit or awe everyone thru bullshit....is something not many have.
On a different scale, am proud and feel privileged about the little things life has been generous enough to offer me.
The friends with whom I sat on my graduation day are my friends for life. They would open their homes to me with both arms in whichever corner they live in; from Bogota, Sao Paolo, Jerusalem, India or be it Tokyo. They are the one's I turn to in times of trouble. People who have been kind enough to accept me and my idiosyncrasies. At our graduation we were bound by enormous affection, by our shared experiences of our time that would never come again. And of course, am proud to be an alumnus of 2 great schools that try to make the world a better place in its own way by enlightening you with concepts such as "time value of money" which imply that U were a fool to do an MBA, but thank u for filling our pockets. That the opportunity cost of doing an MBA is way too expensive than the returns you might dream of and that u were much better off pre-MBA :-). Of coz...we convince ourselves by saying we are here for the knowledge bit and such crap.
I am richer in many ways. Richer to experience 2 recessions in full flow. It tests you no doubt...these vicissitudes of life but only for the better. I am a survivor from two recessions and am ready to face the third :-D. The first one in 2002-2003 was the biggest challenge as I was a toddler gasping for breath, nervous and scared. The second one in 2009-2010, was a different kind of experience(more debts) but I knew it was just a matter of time before I swam across it. In both cases, hope and trust were always my companions I guess. I also learnt how to do a really expensive International degree without a penny in the pocket :-). After all, what are friends for ? To get your flight tickets sponsored, a really expensive MBA sponsored and post MBA jobless life sponsored, u must be a lucky son-of-a-bitch. Blessed, I am.
And now Where am I. Bang! Yes sir, I am in love. It is not the first time but its been a while too see this side of me. Its a special feeling that cant be expressed but has to be experienced. To be in that moment admiring her with her imperfections is possibly a trance-like effect. Perhaps it shows me a side which I don't see very often. I learnt to enjoy the journey and just be myself without bothering as to where it would lead to. I erred, loved, did little crazy things, felt the skipping of a beat and got hurt. All this in one simple swing of the Cupid's touch. I know not where this would lead to. Is the destination all that important when I have no control over it? It's a 2 player game and I believe all one can do is open the door, and allow the person to walk in and experience your good and bad. If the person judges u by your imperfections then I guess the person hasn't known you at all. But if the person likes u in spite of u...u r a lucky son of a gun. Still if someone asks me if I were to do it all over, would I? I would say, Yes! without a blink of an eye!
I am back to living in India and I feel at ease knowing that I am here to stay where the heart is for a while. I made this conscious decision a while back and it took some time and effort to take shape and fall in place. It feels good to know that I can meet my lovely friends and family whenever I want to and share the little things in life.
I guess, there are times in your life when it does not matter how many people you are with, but who you are with. The number of people who you meet as you walk the course of life increases yet your inner circle of friends shrinks. You begin to understand more of you as a person and what you stand for. And somewhere along the journey U also become a better person....at least that's the hope. So here is a big "Salut" to a 2nd innings at life with hope and dreams of a lovely tomorrow...
